Thursday, March 22, 2012

Grown Up Tantrums

Recently I misplaced my driver's license.  I feel convinced that it is somewhere in my house.  I have looked what seems to be everywhere.  Still not found...
Yesterday I decided I needed to really sit down and "concentrate" on God intervening for me.  I wanted God to swoop in and miraculously reveal the missing items.  Didn't happen, and I am not surprised.  I went to him all wrong.  I then decided that I was mad at him for not fixing my problem.  The problem I created by my own carelessness.  Nonetheless it was suddenly God's fault for not bailing me out.  I then proceeded to have my grownup tantrum the rest of the day.  I bitterly turned my back on Him.  I went to church but didn't care about the sermon.  I am deeply ashamed of myself for slipping into such a state of anger and frustration.

So today, I have that 'new day' perspective.  I need to go to my Lord, and truly apologize for the wretched attitude and behavior I had yesterday.
I am more rested today, and I did a morning workout.  That is a first for me.  I have done weight lifting in the morning but never a cardio.  Plus, it was a workout with friends and that is another first for me!  What a challenge!  The accountability of friends working out along with me is tough but well worth it!

I find myself looking forward to an early bedtime and and early morning!  I claimed to be a night person, but I feel so much better when I get up crazy early.  I sure was happy at 5:45am.  Every fit person I know of gets up early.  Even spiritually fit people go to Jesus first thing in the morning.  That seems to be the best time of the day.

I remember looking at the clock at 8:30 this morning and feeling completely satisfied that I was exercised, showered, and ready for the day hair makeup and all!  That is something that I can get addicted to!

Oh and one side note - I still haven't found my license yet, but I am at peace with God's timing...if I am even meant to find it...


What a great day!

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