Recently I misplaced my driver's license. I feel convinced that it is somewhere in my house. I have looked what seems to be everywhere. Still not found...
Yesterday I decided I needed to really sit down and "concentrate" on God intervening for me. I wanted God to swoop in and miraculously reveal the missing items. Didn't happen, and I am not surprised. I went to him all wrong. I then decided that I was mad at him for not fixing my problem. The problem I created by my own carelessness. Nonetheless it was suddenly God's fault for not bailing me out. I then proceeded to have my grownup tantrum the rest of the day. I bitterly turned my back on Him. I went to church but didn't care about the sermon. I am deeply ashamed of myself for slipping into such a state of anger and frustration.
So today, I have that 'new day' perspective. I need to go to my Lord, and truly apologize for the wretched attitude and behavior I had yesterday.
I am more rested today, and I did a morning workout. That is a first for me. I have done weight lifting in the morning but never a cardio. Plus, it was a workout with friends and that is another first for me! What a challenge! The accountability of friends working out along with me is tough but well worth it!
I find myself looking forward to an early bedtime and and early morning! I claimed to be a night person, but I feel so much better when I get up crazy early. I sure was happy at 5:45am. Every fit person I know of gets up early. Even spiritually fit people go to Jesus first thing in the morning. That seems to be the best time of the day.
I remember looking at the clock at 8:30 this morning and feeling completely satisfied that I was exercised, showered, and ready for the day hair makeup and all! That is something that I can get addicted to!
Oh and one side note - I still haven't found my license yet, but I am at peace with God's timing...if I am even meant to find it...
What a great day!
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Gifts
This year I started out wondering how I would get through another year of the same old...
I came across a website about gratitude. The address is www.aholyexperience.com and what I found led me to one thousand gifts. In my season of life I really needed to be redirected. I was all about me. I was sad, lonely, and angry. Was it because of not being loved. NO. I am loved, and blessed - I was missing it. We will see what we expect. I am changing from my self centered approach at life to seeing what I have been blessed with. Once we start looking at life through those eyes of gratitude we find something truly amazing.
I have an amazing husband who also happens to be my best friend. I don't always see him like that. When I am struggling, he can actually become the face of all the bad things in my life - the face to everything that is wrong. And then he gets the brunt of my frustration. Other times that will be my kids. Until now...
They are gifts in my life and that is how I MUST view them. My life is what I make it to be. If I focus on the negative, then the rest of that day is going to be a struggle and I am going to be miserable and those around me will be too. This process is hard and exciting both. I have seen the changes in myself and I am looking forward to each New Day God gives me!
The first gift today that I can't stop thinking about is Tracy. I am grateful for my friend Tracy today! She has been so many things for me in such a short time. She is energetic. She inspires me to want to take care of myself and love life. She shares my faith, and I need support even in that. I feel important when I am around her and that is hard to put a value on. I could go on and on. But this is a great day because I am blessed with a great friend and that is rare!
Sarah
I came across a website about gratitude. The address is www.aholyexperience.com and what I found led me to one thousand gifts. In my season of life I really needed to be redirected. I was all about me. I was sad, lonely, and angry. Was it because of not being loved. NO. I am loved, and blessed - I was missing it. We will see what we expect. I am changing from my self centered approach at life to seeing what I have been blessed with. Once we start looking at life through those eyes of gratitude we find something truly amazing.
I have an amazing husband who also happens to be my best friend. I don't always see him like that. When I am struggling, he can actually become the face of all the bad things in my life - the face to everything that is wrong. And then he gets the brunt of my frustration. Other times that will be my kids. Until now...
They are gifts in my life and that is how I MUST view them. My life is what I make it to be. If I focus on the negative, then the rest of that day is going to be a struggle and I am going to be miserable and those around me will be too. This process is hard and exciting both. I have seen the changes in myself and I am looking forward to each New Day God gives me!
The first gift today that I can't stop thinking about is Tracy. I am grateful for my friend Tracy today! She has been so many things for me in such a short time. She is energetic. She inspires me to want to take care of myself and love life. She shares my faith, and I need support even in that. I feel important when I am around her and that is hard to put a value on. I could go on and on. But this is a great day because I am blessed with a great friend and that is rare!
Sarah
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